Today, I finally hit the big 1-5 in the weight loss department. It’s crazy to think a few years ago that I thought I would NEVER be as big as I was in April when this journey began. (I guess never say never.)
” I don’t know what you’ve been told, But this gal right here’s gonna rule the world. Yeah that is where I’m gonna be, because I wanna be. No I don’t wanna sit still, look pretty.” – Sit Still, Look Pretty (Daya)
In some ways, I’m thankful that I have gone through this period of time where I had gained weight and became depressed. I know you must be thinking- “what, that’s crazy!” I believe that I would not have ever been able to find self love like this if it wasn’t for the weight gain. I believe that being overweight has made me more kind and compassionate. I believe it has also allowed me to see the other side of the “stares.” Instead of stares of creepy old men longingly looking at your body, I’ve seen how it feels to have someone look at you with disgust. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to make this post into a “poor me, I’m so fat and ugly” pity post. Quite the opposite, in fact. I know that I am a pretty girl. I might not be the most beautiful girl in the room, but I am not ugly by any means. Now that I’ve gotten that off my chest, I’m sure people are now thinking “oh wow, she’s so conceited.”
Why is it that we constantly judge others on their statements, even if they are true?
We think that if someone talks down about themselves, they want attention. Then if someone talks highly of themselves, they are conceited and snobby. What’s so wrong with someone acknowledging their good qualities? We claim that confidence is something that is beautiful, but then when someone exerts just the smallest amount of confidence, we throw them under the bus. Well for the first time in my life, I’m going to claim that confidence in Jesus Christ. Without Him, I am nothing.
“You are altogether beautiful, my darling. There is not flaw in you.” -Song of Solomon 4:7
I believe that as Believers, we need to show the world where our true beauty comes from- Jesus! We need to show the love and grace to others that He has bestowed upon us. He could care less that I may be a little overweight. I serve a God who tells us to “come as you are.” There is never a point that you are too low for God to accept you! You don’t have to “get yourself together” before you can have a relationship with the Lord. It can be a beautiful and messy relationship at the same time.
“Even at our worst, to Him we ain’t lost causes, just beautiful messes.” – Beautiful Messes (Hillary Scott)
I’ve always thought that “Once I loose the weight, I’ll be happier” “Once I get into med school, I’ll be happier” “Once I find the right guy, I’ll be happier”… You get the picture. Truth is, I did find the right guy (đ) and He has allowed me to see my true worth in Him. I’ve realized that living your life for the future is not living at all. I’m learning to trust Him in all aspects of my life, and while that may be terrifying, I’m actually enjoying life for the first time in a long time!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
xoxo, Ali
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